Skype is like the world's most wonderful thing ever made for LDR!! So now people like me, dont have to sing tat stupid "Delilah" song!!
Its pretty late now, 2am..
I am going to sleep soon. Was watching a movie called "Permanent Resident" just now.
[http://www.lovehkfilm.com/reviews_2/permanent_residence.html]
The main actor is cute but that's not the point here.
I had a lot of flashback of my personal experiences from that movie. Experiences that till this day, I never really got the truth from.
Then I began to wonder, why is that gay men are so eager to watch gay themed movies? Even knowing that most of these movies have melancholy plots and sad endings!!!
I cant remember how many gay themed movies I have watch till now.
But while I was at the gym this morning, I suddenly remembered my 1st gay themed movie... it was Bishonen (http://www.lovehkfilm.com/reviews_2/bishonen.htm).. I remembered how my sister bought it last time when we were in HK and smuggled it back home.. hahaha that was funny. I guess for me, that movie gave a lot of insight on the complications of a gay man's life (and man, Daniel Wu is freaking hot!!). Every time I watched it, I always hoped that the ending would change...
I guess for me, I kept watching gay themed movies because I am not satisfied with the endings.... and I wont stop till I find one with the perfect ending. =)
So Directors, Bring It on!!!
p/s -ya was a bit emo at this post
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chapter 3
Unlike many, I was very fortunate to have 3 chapters of uni life.
Chapter 1 was in Melb Uni.
Chapter 2 was in IMU.
And Chapter 3 is going to be University of Edinburgh in a week time.
It has been 3 months since I finished my final exams in IMU and I have been procrastinating for long enough.
Perhaps part of me that doesn't want to leave Malaysia is the source of all that. And I know why...
Today, I had an epiphany when I was in the That CD Shop, while I was listening to Escala.I flashed back to the time I first reached Melbourne in 2001 and the sort of music that I listened to back then. It was mainly the 'la-la' genre.. like Kelly Chen's Flower Universe etc.. I was just 17 then.. and man, was I la-la... dye-hair...weird color pants...sling bag... the mere thought of that makes me shiver...lol..I always tell my friends now that if they had known me back then, I doubt they will befriend me.. I was so reckless, immature, bratty, absolutely unrefined. Back then it took me a while to do a lot of soul searching. Some of it was ''what do I want to do with my life?'' which is an irony as my younger brother is going through that too now. I was also searching for my real self back then too....
Then 1/2 way through my Melbourne life, my music genre transpired to a cuter genre...anime theme song... and one of the still all time favorite is.. Chobits 'let me be with you' haha... It was definitely a turning point in my life, as I realized that I actually want to do medicine and I am comfortable with myself. Well, getting a 2nd class upper wasnt really my plan as 1st class upper for honors was my goal for a transfer to medicine in Melb Uni. Hence, I packed my bags and returned home.
I took a year off and my music genre was more j-rock and j-pop. I used to hate Gackt as his make-up was creepy. But out of the blue, I heard his songs on youtube and I quickly became a fan. I also realized myself to change, both physical and mental wise. I lost 10++ kg and took better care of my face. After a while of holidaying, I told mum that I want to study again.. so i applied for a few uni, HK Uni for Medicine and Chinese Medicine and IMU (somehow I knew I was going to get this). HK Uni replied and asked me for an interview for CMed.. which I so totally lied on the application for being 'fluent in Putonghua' so to save myself from humiliation.. i rejected it and ended up in IMU, chapter 2.
In Chapter 2, I was more of a classical music person. That's when I went to MPO for the 1st time and Nodame rocked my world. IMU was definitely nerve wreaking on the 1st week. Being a mature student, I felt the generation gap and the immaturity of the so-called 'seniors' was appalling and thought of withdrawing was contemplated. But, I chose to stay on and won that IMCC thingy and became the president for the next orientation. In my mind then, I knew that to elicit change, I must be on the top of the food chain and so I did. I enjoyed my IMU days after I realized that absolute power was what I need?!!! Khahahhaa (ok...maybe not). I enjoyed my IMU days after I found my rocks, which I am so thankful of. =).
And now Chapter 3... what sort of music genre would I appreciate now? Edinburgh...Scotland... bagpipes?.. celtic music?! maybe...not sure...
but as I am writing this blog now, I am so happy to finally put the name to this music which I have been dying to find out.. Robert Miles - Children
So my point is that.. for me, music has always been there for me when I was struggling to accept my homosexuality... when I had my family problems...when I nearly failed my anatomy 101... and when I met James.. and u know how people say that a picture says a thousand words..
but for me, music shares a thousand memories
Chapter 1 was in Melb Uni.
Chapter 2 was in IMU.
And Chapter 3 is going to be University of Edinburgh in a week time.
It has been 3 months since I finished my final exams in IMU and I have been procrastinating for long enough.
Perhaps part of me that doesn't want to leave Malaysia is the source of all that. And I know why...
Today, I had an epiphany when I was in the That CD Shop, while I was listening to Escala.I flashed back to the time I first reached Melbourne in 2001 and the sort of music that I listened to back then. It was mainly the 'la-la' genre.. like Kelly Chen's Flower Universe etc.. I was just 17 then.. and man, was I la-la... dye-hair...weird color pants...sling bag... the mere thought of that makes me shiver...lol..I always tell my friends now that if they had known me back then, I doubt they will befriend me.. I was so reckless, immature, bratty, absolutely unrefined. Back then it took me a while to do a lot of soul searching. Some of it was ''what do I want to do with my life?'' which is an irony as my younger brother is going through that too now. I was also searching for my real self back then too....
Then 1/2 way through my Melbourne life, my music genre transpired to a cuter genre...anime theme song... and one of the still all time favorite is.. Chobits 'let me be with you' haha... It was definitely a turning point in my life, as I realized that I actually want to do medicine and I am comfortable with myself. Well, getting a 2nd class upper wasnt really my plan as 1st class upper for honors was my goal for a transfer to medicine in Melb Uni. Hence, I packed my bags and returned home.
I took a year off and my music genre was more j-rock and j-pop. I used to hate Gackt as his make-up was creepy. But out of the blue, I heard his songs on youtube and I quickly became a fan. I also realized myself to change, both physical and mental wise. I lost 10++ kg and took better care of my face. After a while of holidaying, I told mum that I want to study again.. so i applied for a few uni, HK Uni for Medicine and Chinese Medicine and IMU (somehow I knew I was going to get this). HK Uni replied and asked me for an interview for CMed.. which I so totally lied on the application for being 'fluent in Putonghua' so to save myself from humiliation.. i rejected it and ended up in IMU, chapter 2.
In Chapter 2, I was more of a classical music person. That's when I went to MPO for the 1st time and Nodame rocked my world. IMU was definitely nerve wreaking on the 1st week. Being a mature student, I felt the generation gap and the immaturity of the so-called 'seniors' was appalling and thought of withdrawing was contemplated. But, I chose to stay on and won that IMCC thingy and became the president for the next orientation. In my mind then, I knew that to elicit change, I must be on the top of the food chain and so I did. I enjoyed my IMU days after I realized that absolute power was what I need?!!! Khahahhaa (ok...maybe not). I enjoyed my IMU days after I found my rocks, which I am so thankful of. =).
And now Chapter 3... what sort of music genre would I appreciate now? Edinburgh...Scotland... bagpipes?.. celtic music?! maybe...not sure...
but as I am writing this blog now, I am so happy to finally put the name to this music which I have been dying to find out.. Robert Miles - Children
So my point is that.. for me, music has always been there for me when I was struggling to accept my homosexuality... when I had my family problems...when I nearly failed my anatomy 101... and when I met James.. and u know how people say that a picture says a thousand words..
but for me, music shares a thousand memories
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